miss hayley.... if your nasty

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 21:52:31 GMT

this lj is getting wierd. new lj time!

my new and improved better than ever lj

learn it add it love it

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 17:56:53 GMT

farewell summer of 04 and all the good things that came with it.

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 14:26:33 GMT

Do you play any instruments?: piano
3 Favorite Genres Of Music: hmm
3 Favorite Bands: cd's in my car: asimp & ryan cabrera <3, tbs and dieradiodie

Word Association

Blue: color
Camera: sony
Boy: <3 today
Pretty: cat
Pants:: jeans
Music: love
God: jesus
Sweater: pink
Live Journal: cure
MTV: reality shows

Labels:

Do you think labels are dumb?: extremly
Why or why not?: they address people in a stereotypical way
What do people label you as?: the most i get "emo", "hardcore" & "punkrocker". haha sike
How/Why did you get this label?: who the hell knows

Which Is Worse?

Physical Pain/Emotional Pain?: emotional
Blink-182/Good Charlotte?: gc baby
Being Deaf/Being Blind: blind
Being Bored/Rushing around because you have too much to do?: rushing round
Losing your dominant leg/Losing your dominant arm?: arm

Love

Do you believe theres a difference between "love" and "in love"?: ya.. i love all my friends but being in love is something completely different
Is it better to have loved and lossed than to have never loved at all?: loved and lost, you can say you had it.
Are you romantic?: a hopeless one
Are you in a relationship now?: i guess i would say so
If so, for how long?: whose counting
If not, how long have you been single?: for a while before
Are you a virgin?: um
What song describes your love life right now?: "peices of me"-a simp & "on the way down"- ryan cabrera... im not sure they describe my love life right now but theyre cute so whatever.

Ranomosity

War: Good or Bad?: bad but necessary
What do you think of designer labels?: stop being expensive
Who's skankier: Britney Spears or Paris Hilton?: britney
Do you sing?: shower and car
kiss or hug?: hugs are more personal i think
What color is your room?: white, with a red black and white decor
How old is your mom?: 44?
Black and white or color photos?: black and white, my rooms filled with them
Who cuts your hair?: yours truely
What color is your toothbrush?:green
Who do you sit with at lunch?: luncheons with mr gerber were nice last year.
Do you like the sound of your own voice when you hear it played back?: doesnt sound like me
Who has the nicest speaking voice that you know?: the verizon guy
What is the website for one of your favorite bands?:www.idonthaveafavoriteband.com
Do you prefer to date people younger, older, or the same age as you?: older
Do you listen to songs on repeat often?: haha yes
Who was the last person you hung out with?: seanne, jenna and alex last night
What did you and that person do? hung out with more people at kennys and gurneys then 711 escapade
how often do you bathe?: every day or every other day
Are you a people-pleaser?: i guess
Can you beatbox?: what the hell is that?

Answer yes or no to the following...

Friends would describe me as alert.: yes
I know what all the stereo controls on my system are for.: sure do
I have a favorite scent. (What is it? Why do you like it?): yes vanilla and roses
I like to touch and be touched.: yes
I see the humor in life every day.: yes
I have a tendency to "jump to conclusions".: no
I enjoy riddles, puzzles, and puns.: no
I like details.:yes
I am almost always on time.: no
I am skilled at math.: no
I rely on logic.: yes
Analysis is one of my strengths.: yes
I am highly imaginative.: yes
I often say or do the unexpected.: yes
I rely on intuition.: yes
I love to move.: yes
I am ecologically aware.: somewhat
I enjoy similies, analogies, and metaphors.: yes
I sometimes experience a sense of connectedness with all creation.: yes

Three things that scare me:

1: lonliness
2: thunderstorms
3: sometimes heights

Three people who make me laugh:
1: seanne... high
2: jimmy
3: my friends

Three Things I love:
1: life
2: music
3: my friends

Three Things I hate:
1: bad drivers
2: arroghence
3: authority

Three things I don't understand:
1: where you go when you die, and how long is forever
2: why people cant just live their own lives and mind their own business
3: life sometimes

Three things on my desk:
1: my cat
2: cds
3: tv

Three things I'm doing right now:
1: stretching
2: breathing
3: wiating

Three things I want to do before I die:
1: fly
2: fall in love
3: get married

<333 36 hours :)

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 14:00:17 GMT

10 Random Facts about me

10. im a cuddlebug
09. im obsessed with ashlee simpson and ryan cabrera
08. im a movie critic
07. "im deep" haha
06. im very spontanious
05. im not a fan of floyd e kellam high school
04. i can't wait to get married
03. i love virgnia beach
02. i dont like snobby girls or rude people
01. im the happiest now than ive been in a while

9 Places I've Visited

09. l.a.
08. atlantic city
07. my bathroom
06. hatteras
05. florida
04. the zoo
03. myrtle beach
02. vegas
01. soon: hawaii

8 Things I want to do before I die

08. fly
07. fall
06. be married
05. have at least 2kids
04. go to college
03. sport a ferrari
02. be famous
01. to live life to it's fullest

7 Ways to win my heart

07. be a cuddle bug too
06. make me laugh
05. support me
04. be loving
03. be caring
02. surprise me (a kiss or hug when i least expect it)
01. <3333

6 Things I believe in

06. a thing called looooovvvveee.
05. george w bush
04. God
03. life after death
02. ghosts
01. karma

5 Things I'm afraid of

05. thunderstorms!!
04. rejection
03. missing an opportunity
02. not living life to the fullest
01. being alone

4 Of my Favorite Items in my bedroom

04. my comfy bed
03. clothes
02. my shoes
01. movies

3 Things I do everyday

03. brush my teeth
02. talk to my friends
01. have fun and take pictures oops guess thats 4 things

2 Things I am trying not to do right now

02. work
01. go to kellam or start school.

1 Person I want to see right now

01. ejm

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 00:14:51 GMT

i have a truely severe anger management problem. and i have a really bad case of hypoglycemia, and those 2 dont mix.
im kind of unsatisfied right now in life. im making next to nothing when i work my ass off, i miss my cuddlebug so much, and it looks like i'll be going to kellam. and then i hear in my head "why cant you just be happy?" and i think ok well i should just be glad im living and im healthy. and i am. and i have so many good things in my life right now too. but i guess im just aggrivated.

yesterday i was off so i met em and alex at the mall. me and em reconciled which is kind of comforting to know.... ya. seanne alex and i then went to the beach to check out some early ecsc action. no waves=no action. so we left. seanne and i hung out at kennys for a little bit, watched family guy. i had a lovely late night, well i guess early morning conversation with <3. i slept till 1130 this morning because of it. boy am i a slug. im supposed to go meet my sister with money for my dinner that she forgot to bring to my work. i havent eaten all day which i think is why parts of this entry sound so aggressive. grrr im realy tired so im gonna get to bed early tonight. i want to road trip before school. im thinking of destinations.

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yes! bout time another survey started floating around.

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 20:13:45 GMT

a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 5'3 1/2
HAIR COLOR: monocromatic reds with black
SKIN COLOR: olive
WEIGHT: 108
EYE COLOR: greeen
PIERCINGS: 2 ear
TATTOOS: coming soon

r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: jeans
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: madonna BORDERLINE
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: an apple
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: absolutely gorgeous
HOW ARE YOU? ill with some extremely fatigued/exhausted/tired feelings

d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: nope
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: tons
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: for the most part

f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: nip/tuck
CONDITIONER: halo
BOOK: if you give a mouse a cookie
MAGAZINE: spin
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: any juices
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: beer
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: what i feel like doing gosh!
BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: oh lord. a lot

h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: haha yes
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: to tech last year. fun for the most part
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: mission impossible styleee
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: in the bay
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: of course.
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: hahaha no.
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: yes
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: yes
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: yes
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: i was obligaed to do the patriotic program in 3rd grade. does that count?
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: not literally

l o v e
BOYFRIEND: <3
GIRLFRIEND: i dig the male gender.
SEXUALY: weak spot: my ears
CHILDREN: someday.
CURRENT CRUSH: nca
BEEN IN LOVE?: not yet
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: unfortunately yes
BEEN HURT?: yes
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: no regrets
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: haha yes

r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: yes
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: old coheed
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: tickle me pink
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: guess?
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: guess again
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: ashlee simpson cause my first one got stolen. damn you.
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: at the moment... ejm, seanne, alex, jared, joe and of course my sista.
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: live

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: yesterday
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: dont get any letters
YOU GOT E-MAIL: today
THING YOU PURCHASED: sobe at 711
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: general hospital
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: the notebook<3

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
ABORTION: when its needed
TEENAGE SMOKING: its your body, none of my business what you do with it
SEX: necessary for survival.
DREAMS: i dig the steamy ones. scary ones suck

<3 hey mr im addicted to reading lj's :)

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 03:26:33 GMT

your too cute.

so i woke up at whitneys this morning with such a nasty cold. my throat is killing me, or was. its slowly being cured by ice cream. went to christians last night. played some wicked rounds of beer pong and pool. met some new people. today i slept most of the day. im getting my schedule changed on tuesday. im trying to still go to p.a. but it looks like i'll be graduating a knight duh duh duh duhhnnn
alright summer is nearing the end and i feel like its been a waste. well actually up to a couple weeks ago. the past couple of weeks have been awesome. <3 im sleeping in my bed tonight for the first time in...well a long time. im gonna miss my cuddlebug

i watched fight club tonight and im in love marla singer. shes funny and the epitomy of a new york city styled freeloader. god i wanna be like her when i grow up.

eleven twenty one and im not the least bit tired. i have to work at nine thirty. you would think illness would bring on a sense of fatique and exhaustion. but im wide awake so i think ill do laundry or something. whatever goodnight <33

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 21:51:26 GMT

shit is subject to change due to the fact that senior year, im getting out early.

a days-
1: government - melito
2: sociology- walsh
3: study hall- boone
4: english

bdays-
1: keyboarding- ferebee
2: ap studio art- doroz
3: chemistry-benzel
4: study hall- bradshaw

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 17:20:52 GMT

alright so i think i need to not get attached to people too easily. last night i had a dream about something that really scared me. but i liked waking up to that dream and having somebody to cuddle with. im getting so bored with live journal. ive become to big of a myspace fiend. and ive drawn way too many people in so they can become addicted as well. its an addicting site what can i say. i havent really been home lately no complaints. quality time with alex and seanne has been the best. we've just been straight chillin trying to bring back memories of summer of 02. RIP.
lets see. last night was entertaining. seanne alex and i ventured on base to play kings at brandons house. i havent laughed like that in a while. i love it. and it was fun until my drink got taken away. but it was cause i had to drive so i love you guys for it :) so i went and had an awesome rest of the night.
im getting really sad because everybody is leaving in the next couple of days. but i also get really excited to think of the many road trips im going to be taking to tech radford and longwood. im off this weekend so im trying to go somewhere. time for work now.

this is getting old.

Sun, 08 Aug 2004 19:28:03 GMT

so im over at seannes still in pjs at 330 in the afternoon. warped tour was really fun. favorite part: amber pacific playing an acoustic show under their tent in the rain. adorable just plain adorable.
funny how i feel so non productive yet i work my ass off. and ive decided to forgo cheerleading for sr year. unnecessary stress but mostly unnecessary drama. i am making a lot of money.i think im moving out of the state after graduation. im thinking maybe.... utah or colorado? or maybe i'll just go right to california no stops on the way and sit on my ass on the west coast instead of the east. we'll see. im so irritated with life. im bored. bored bored bored with life. senior year better fly by.
ive been doing absolutely nothing lately. i havnet even gone to the beach 3 times this summer. so anyways tonight on my agenda. garden state plays at the naro at 730. we're doing seannes hair today too. maybe more black in mine too. who knows.
be spontanious

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 16:05:45 GMT

work. i feel like a workaholic. the computer screeen is looking completely blurry..my eyes need to adjust. week of freedom is over and my moodiness and irritable tendoncies have come back. great. which means constant bitch so stay out of my way. i hate this i wish i could snap my fingers and be out of this. i dont know whats wrong. do i need a shrink? or maybe hynosis. who knows i just need to get out of this funk ive been in. well actually there was a break for about 2 weeks. well im hungry so i think im going to hit up schlotzkys now cause i havent had that in a while.

boredom in the early morn resulted in this which is cute. and i guess true?

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	breath taking
Your hugs are...	gentle
Your eyes...	sparkle like the stars
Your touch is...	awakening my heart
Your smell is...	refreshing
Your smile is...	entrancing
Your love is...	unique

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because its ladies night.

Tue, 20 Jul 2004 22:59:58 GMT

to everyone :
figure out what you want in life. and grab hold of it....quick. dont wait because its going to be gone when you finally realize that you cant live without it. learn lessons by mistakes.

|i finally am relaxed. totally and fullout relaxed. im not uptight anymore and im not bitchy anymore and im not getting irritated easily. |

| on a lighter note... my hair looks fucking crazy. which fits me i think. its a bob and i put 2 more reds in it plus some blonde. whatever i like it. 6:49 and im just starting my day. i just got a shower, ate a bowl of cheerios and am getting ready for my night out. i sometimes feel like i go out way too much but its just no fun anymore sitting home alone. maybe if cuddle bug had another cuddle bug i could see myself lounging around the house all day and not doing anything and watch movies and sleep the day away, but that always makes me feel like i didnt do anything productive that day. i just love going out and meeting people so i guess theres no harm in that. right? |

| i finished the whole first season of nip/tuck yesterday at work. too bad i havent really been home to watch the second season. today i decided to have lunch with jobeth so we went to tgifs and met my dad there. then i went over to alexs for a while. then decided to come home and shower and stuff. i need to start laundry too. this sucks... half the summers gone. already! july 20th for christs sakes. come on here. i need to find out what school im going to quick. im going to pull my hair out if i dont go to p.a. or maybe i'll just drop out since i love my hair too much to pull it out. |

Mon, 19 Jul 2004 05:11:41 GMT

its 12:30 in the morning and i have to work at 9:30. so it makes plenty of sense that i decided to put a survey in before i go to bed because im not really tired and to be quite honest ive been in a shitty mood for the past week. ive been very bitchy, easily irritated and just downright uptight. and i notice it but i cant do a damn thing about it. ive been saying the fuck word a lot too ive noticed. but seriously, i want to be back to my old self. because im not the old me anymore, im the new me and me cannot get accustomed to change. im just going to sit in my room and sulk because my night has been dictated yet again but others needs/wants. and the old me would say fuck you im doing this because i want too, but the new me is sensitive to others feelings and their comfortable-ness around certain people. which ultimately leads me to labeling myself as a passive pushover or better known as everyones bitch. thats hard for me to admit that ive turned into one of those. oh god... i have though. please help.

Thirteen random things you like:
01) sleeping
02) showers
03) bud light
04) juliana my cat.
05) morning sex?
06) tropical smoothie for breakfast
07) boy cut underwear
08) advils
09) flip flops
10) massages
11) banana republic
12) not kids
13) spontanious nights complete with getting wasted, 24 hour diners and sleeping in cars.

Twelve random things you want:
01) my old self back
02) money
03) to decapitate suddam hussein and bin laden..with a machete and keep their heads on a plaque in my room so i can use them as dart boards.
04) with the accomplishment up there, ultimately world peace.
05) someone to repair my heart
06) patience
07) purple contacts
08) meet eddie furlong
09) to have a near death experience and actually see the white light and tunnel etc.
10) to wake up one morning and not have to rub out 3 and 4 muscle cramps when i stretch and my muscles dont contract back.
11) 1957 chevy bellair. black with white leather interior with black trim.
12) i want something exciting to happen in my life.

Eleven good bands/artists:
01) juliana theory
02) btbam
03) lili hayden
04) nina gorden
05) fsf
06) dieradiodie
07) HIM
08) appleseed cast
09) ben jelen
10) got to always give love to dashboard, always and forever
11) some country too.

Ten things about you ... physically:
01) natural red head even though you cant tell now
02) my eyes change from green to blue depending on the color im wearing
03) i have vampire bites on my neck and inner theigh. yes yes im forsaken.
04) 5'3
05) sun poisening
06) freckles on my nose
07) mole on my eyelid for as long as i can remember
08) a lot of scares
09) size 8 1/2-9 feet
10) i have a belly button

Nine thoughts:
01) if somebody ever asks me "what the hell is she doing here" with attitude again when its MY SISTERS house, im going to kill that person with a knife. beware. yes im talking about you.
02) i hate being uptight all the time. if only i could tell you why.
03) i miss summer of 02. everything is reminding me of it
04) shit would be a lot easier if....
05) my muscles just cramped up. ouch
06) if yoga wasnt so extrenuous, it would be so relaxing
07) which reminds me, i have an appt for a massage this weekend.
08) haha i definately compared a slut to the ugly monster guy in lord of the rings tonight. ahahahaha. that was funny as shit.
09) i want to see the notebook again.

Eight favorite foods/drinks:
01) cereal, preferably any kind of cheerios or lucky charms
02) steak with ranch dressing
03) shit any kind of meat
04) any sort of potatoe
05) hawaiian breeze trop. smoothie- the best
06) cucumbers
07) bourban chicken ONLY from that cajun place in the mall.
08) bk

Seven things you wear daily:
01) contacts
02) watch
03) bra (somtimes)
04) flipflops
05) some kind of tank top or t shirt
06) bottom of some sort, jeans or soffess.
07) usually a thong but i'll go without anything sometimes

Six things that annoy you:
01) right now...everything
02) but normally when im not in an irritable mood, bad drivers
03) arroghent people
04) sluts/snobby bitches
05) kids
06) authority

Five things you touch everyday:
01)i touch you once, i touch you twice. oh shit im breaking out into song. haha (from the 80's)
02) my eye
03) toothbrush
04) cell phone
05) my hair

Four shows you watch:
01) nip/tuck
02) ashlee simpson show
03) the news
04) real world/road rules

Three People you have a crush on:
01) um.
02) ya
03) right

Two things you hate:
01) change
02) being taken advantage of

One thing you love:
01) no matter how hard it gets, i'll always love life. cherish it, tomorrow could be your last day here on the beautiful planet of earth.

Fri, 16 Jul 2004 04:35:50 GMT

ok so its weeks at a time. but the weeks i havent been on the computer are the weeks that ive been spending with people and having the time of my life. and theyre also the weeks that ive been spending doing things that have been so fun and memorable. why would anybody want to sit on a computer at home when the weather outside is amazingly gorgeous and the company is the best it can be?

those weeks ive been talking about consist of the beach, jordan, cigarettes, jobeth, andre, mexican food, alex and beer. ya thats basically it. with a little bit of random shit here and there, like me going out and buying an entire bed set today. complete with the huge body pillow pillow case. i honestly couldnt tell you what was running through my mind either. i dont remember. i was probably deep in a trance becuase i had just spent 2 lonely hours in a dark cemetary. which really wasnt half bad. it gave me some major thinking time and it was good on the soul. try it sometime. you'll come out with the most strange feelings in the world. \

this is the first night that ive been 1: sober and 2: sleeping at my house in about 2 weeks. my birthday was great. i'll always remember it to. for as long as i hope i do. and as long as it lasts.

parents in vegas for a week on saturday. it makes me feel pretty uneasy about sleeping at my house alone now that 14 cars were broken into the other night on my street. call me crazy but i feel a tad unsafe. i was followed by the getaway car tonight and then watched from my rearview mirror in my car in my driveway after i thought i had out ran them, them picking up the robbers.

what the hell is society producing now a days. why cant shit be like the fourties and fifties where fun was considered going up to the "point" and making out. or going to diners on friday nights and sitting by the juke box while your stud in a black leather jacket, cropped blue jeans, a tight white tee and black converse all star high tops picked out a jammin tune by elvis for you guys to swing to. ah the innocent times of the century. no its like.... well not like that. generation y is faced with much more bullshit than generation x. dont get me wrong, living in this time has its benefits what with the technologies such as cell phones and amusement parks, but id much rather rock out to elvis frank sinatra and billie holiday than chingy yellow card and celine dion, or whatever hot new chart topper popped up in the radio scene recently.
i guess since so much random shit happened today that i was destined to write a weird ass journal entry. if i were reading this, i wouldnt expect anything less.

inspire somebody. somebody inspire me.

ripped off from ashley

Tue, 06 Jul 2004 15:44:45 GMT

ten bands you've been listening to lately:

pat benetar
marilyn monroe
btbam
nina gorden
piano music (ben jelen)
juliana theory
further seems forever
HIM
saves the day

nine things your looking forward to:

summer
beach
road trips
love
my birthday (2 days)
drinking to the point of no return
sleeping in cars
summer flings
my acception letter to p.a.

eight things you like to wear:

flip flops
boy cut underwear
tank tops
jeans
watch
pearl bracelets
daddys ring
bathing suits

seven things that annoy you:

slow drivers
rude people
liars
drama
dissatisfication
schedules
people who dont mind their own business

six things you do everyday:

brush my teeth
stretch
put my hair up
day dream
go to tropical smoothie
think about life

five movies you could watch over and over:

the notebook
ferris buelers day off
romeo and juliet
johnny depp's movies
sorority boys (shit gets me weak)

four people you want to spend more time with:

jobeth
anthony
whitney & megan
alexandra lovitt

three people you've kissed:

jared
thomas
matthew

two of your favorite songs at the moment:

lili hayden-come here
pat benetar- total eclipse of the heart

one person you couldn't live without:

my lovely sister

partied on the beaches of nags head last night with some cool kids we met. this past weekend was so much fun and i'll be damned if i can even remember what i did. hate to say it but i like this. birthdays in 2 days. ya bring on 17 and the rated r movies. which reminds me, i went to kmart last night and got carded for buying a rated r movie and the russian girl wouldnt let me buy it. ive never been carded for buying a movie before.. but i tried to tell her it was a misprint on my license and that my birthday was really on the 3rd of july. eh she didnt buy it. haha so i went to walmart instead and got FOUR rated r movies without being carded. walmart is the best. jo and i are talking about how we want a small little romantic period where this person is cool as shit to chill wiht and isnt all about ass. kind of like a summer love sort of thing. those are cute. i want one. sisters think alike. gotta go im tired

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 03:52:18 GMT

just went to see the notebook. if only life was really like that.. or something like it. or at least just the romantic parts. i really wish i was alive through the 40's and 50's. best decades i think. elvis, marilyn monroe, bobbed haircuts, innocence. too bad i was born into a generation full of sex drugs and alcohol. and im slowly getting sucked in. im starting a town thats all 50s. im building a drive in diner and im selling poodle skirts and leather jackets and cute dresses with matching hats and lipsticks. pearls and purses and a lot of plaid. if only i had the money. im really bored so im getting lost in my thoughts...bare with me.its almost midnight. ive cried my eyes out tonight due to a movie and thoughts. im not going to dwell over how i wish that i could be the leading lady in a real life dramatic love story. but i wish something cool would happen like that. why cant a guy hang off a farris wheel for me? haha now i sound like a hopeless romantic little girl. one that picks petals of daisies to see if he loves me or not.

so im driving and ive had tropical smoothie everyday for the past ten days. oh lord. met some people at the beach last night whom im hoping i can spend a lot more time with. with alex of course. love that girl. been hanging out with her a lot! lately. if you dont have a pet, i highly suggest one. my cat has listened to so much ... and pets are pretty good listeners..and even though they dont give good advice they can sure make you feel loved. haha i talk to my cat. lets hear it for me being crazy. no wait im just tired.

Sun, 20 Jun 2004 16:31:30 GMT

dating draco malfoy is worth an update. i drive i work and its summer. enjoy life.

i think its so groovy now that people are finally gettin together

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 03:48:50 GMT

life is fucking perfect. license wednesday and i have a job finally. and the fact that everything is just going great. i should really hang out to this moment and feeling. it'll probably be gone in the next week just because thats how life is. i wish i could just freeze this moment. ding frozen done. i officially am going to feel like this forever.

onto more important matters. i drive wednesday. i .... drive.... w-e-d-n-e-s-d-a-y. oh god. haha i just analyzed that.

this weekend was cool. alex and i hung out at kennys friday night. joe and his little pellet gun. oh he definately heard it from boniqua last night. ya thats right joe. anyways we had sats the next morning. sucked first day of work and babysat that night. made some moolah. and we went through 2 bags of chips and dip in 5 hours and watched a lot of movies. what couch potatoes.

i like punkd becuase it shows just how arroghent celebrities really are. promise me if any of you are celebrities in ten years that you dont act like rude snobby rich folk. thanks a bunch

monster- what a crazy movie. somebody told me i looked like martina mcbride last night. haha what the fuck? so random

so i am trying to go back to pa next year. i want to graduate as a cavalier not a knight. yessssssss

god im tired bed time for hayley.

Tue, 01 Jun 2004 02:42:40 GMT

had a fantastic night last night. picked up by alex and hillary and hung out with mary seanne as well. wow i really really miss them.

the o.c is on right now? weird

a new streak has started.

i miss my sister being home a lot.

behind the wheel starts tomorrow finally. license june 7

i just realized i take my sats on saturday. for the first time. and i have a feeling im going to do lousy.

ive been thinking about beauty school a lot lately. im tryin to skip college and go there.

i love my friends each and every one of them. i love you all.

summers going to be great.

Sat, 22 May 2004 04:18:34 GMT

stereophonics and red house painters keeps a person sane when cleaning and is relaxing to sing along too. and are just plain awesome no matter what the situation is.

if anybody has any black/white/red influenced art or photography and they would like to get rid of them, contact me.. i will pay.

today/tonight has been disappointing and boring.

sunny day real estate can be added to the list up there too

had a jamocha shake today from arbys. man i miss those things

slept over at jo's last night. miss her too

talking to chloe gives me confidence. <3 ya

mr writer why dont you tell me like it really is? why dont you tell me like it always is?

so bored today that i watched the whole first season of roswell

i dont understand

i could get used to going to school at 10 every morning. apparently only 14 more days.

get the license on june 7th. horray

thoughtful mood today

i played cinderella today. scrubbing dusting rags and all. crucial cleanings suck

this ends the streak.

Mon, 17 May 2004 02:51:39 GMT

this weekend was awesome
why?

+ville valo on stage last night smoking drinking beers and looking fucking hot as hell... him. enough said.

+friday night- walked from 10th to 57th street, drank energy drinks, climbed a tree that is prime for a treehouse, explored the cavalier haunted (more to come), broke into a hotel to get some drinks, scoped out some pools for our mission and i did it all with anthony so that in itself just completed my awesome night.

+weekend three/early sunrise/next to you.

+i had burger king tonight for the first time in about 6 months.

+wild boyz

+bought art from hunter to make my room beautiful

+saw many friends i havent seen in a while and met new people

+spent the whole weekend with my lovely sister jobeth

+went to the secret spot to chill and talk.

this weekend also sucked in a way
why?

-i got sick. stuffy nose, sore throat and sneezing every 5 seconds

-no trolly pictures

-layed out for a half hour and no sign of bronzed skin

-fuck this stupid english bullshit thats taken up all my time today. (still not finished)

harry potter 3 on june 4th. i get my license in ten days. thats cool. my new favorite snack is apples..granny smith green apples that is with peanut butter. i had 2 today just because its fast easy filler food. ive watched the hours slip by. ive been sitting in my computer chair most of my day trying to get this project done. im such a procrastinator. no sol tomorrow i get to sleep in. i really want to get bobbed twentys/thirties hair. that would be so rad. theres going to be a zenon girl of the 21st century 3. that movie was cool and every time i heard stellar i think of the good incubus song. i want to get a baby sloth. theyre so cute and so harmless. adorable... well its time to get back to work. too many distractions around my room. goodnight -hayley

Mon, 10 May 2004 01:50:47 GMT

i have the cutest half pound puppy sleeping in my lap right now. how cute

i hate forgetting where i put things. i just had my usb chord not 2 hours ago and now i cant find it. i wanted to upload pictures. dash it all

him is in 6 days

saturday is a busy day: peytons birthday, andres fiesta, hunters art show, him!

i missed viva la bam. ive been watching harry potter. a new one movie in his pubescent series is coming out. looks cool.

chilled with anthony most of the weekend. wouldnt have it any other way. hung out with people last night which was cool too. enjoyed it.

wild boyz in thirty minutes. that show makes me laugh where you cant breathe. i love those kinds of laughs.

i wish i had some cake batter plus brownies right now.

sol week is going to be sinchy. 2 sol's and sleeping in until 930 is definately awesome.

trying to put a puppy to sleep is harder than it seems. its crying like mad because i shut it up in its little sleep place for the night. awe.

-hayley-

Wed, 28 Apr 2004 03:05:47 GMT

i owe it to my viewers to update. im watching sparticus right now which is really interesting. major spring cleaning today. i wish i was mary poppins where i could just snap my fingers and everything would clean itself up. damn reality.
i get my license in less than a month. im overly joyed. lately just been hanging out with anthony. went to volume with chloe saturday and got red house painters - down colorful hill. i like it a lot. ive lately been falling asleep to my mixtape though. so relaxing. had a luncheon with alex today which i had a great time.
listened to short stories with tragic endings today. i used to know it all by heart. not anymore. HIM is in 18 days. counting down. nothing else to write about so im going. dont write down any memory of us. thank you. -hayley-

Tue, 20 Apr 2004 22:04:17 GMT

I AM: bored.
I WANT: to cuddle.
I HAVE: no money.
I WISH: i drove!
I HATE: when my cat thinks my bathroom is her litterbox. (rug #3)
I FEAR: dying alone.
I HEAR: "sunday bloody sunday" & ambulance sirens.
I SEARCH: for the past
I WONDER: about the future.
I REGRET: a few things, but they are a waste of time
I LOVE: the people who make me smile
I ACHE: in my neck. whiplash
I WOULD: stop the world and melt with you
I ALWAYS: dont understand chemistry.
I AM NOT: who you think i am.
I DANCE: during cheering season.
I SING: in my shower and when im alone.
I CRY: a lot recently.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: this happy
I WRITE: different things
I WIN: shouts the kid in the game commercial
I LOSE: my optimism now and again
I CONFUSE: myself
I NEED: you.
I SHOULD: go outside instead of doing this survey

YES or NO:
x. YOU KEEP A DIARY: yes and not just online
x. YOU LIKE TO COOK: hell ya i love emeril! BAMM
x. YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVE NOT SHARED WITH
ANYONE: yes
x. YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE: no..I BELIEVE IN A THING CALLED HUIIIIITTTT OOHHHHH. :) yes love too, just hasnt struck yet.

DO YOU...?
HAVE A CRUSH: yes
WANT TO GET MARRIED: sure do. when the times right
GET MOTION SICKNESS: never have
THINK YOURE A HEALTH FREAK: not really
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: most of the time
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: only during the day, i hate them at night

CURRENT
HAIR COLOR: monochromatic reds plus black
EYE COLOR: green
BIRTHPLACE: virginia beach virginia

FAVORITE
NUMBER: eight
COLOR: green
DAY: sunday
MONTH: july.
SONG: no favorites.
FOOD: pinapples and peach yogart plus cereal
SEASON: doesnt matter
SPORT: no favorites
DRINK: orange n cream, welches passion fruit juice.

PREFERENCES:
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: cuddling after making out.
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: chocolate milk
MILK, DARK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE: milk chocolate
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: chocolate ..duh

IN THE LAST 24 HRS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED? yes and on cue.
HELPED SOMEONE? tipped well
BOUGHT SOMETHING? the movie mannequin
GOTTEN SICK? nope
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? does coldstone count
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? i wish
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: no.
TALKED TO AN EX? night before last
MISSED AN EX? not really
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? mmhmm.
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? yeah.
MISSED SOMEONE? you bet.
HUGGED SOMEONE? no
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? nope
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? no

i find myself doing this survey instead of being outside. it sucks i want to drive.
the vehicle got rammed in the back. the dude was going so fast it dented our bumber and left a license plate imprint. haha bruise on leg from slammin into the steering wheel. blah blah that sucks. all i heard today was shit about 420. big deal..im sick of being in the house. britney spear's new video is sad but true. i like the weather and i miss the people. -hayley-
if only i can......

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 20:07:52 GMT

its crazy how something so small can put such a big smile on my face. im a sucker for the little things. get me every time. the weather does too i was in a giddy mood all day because the weather is so beautiful . just like you

so much beck today. listened to them on the way home, in jo's profile and i read that he got married and is having a kid. awe cute

call me crazy but im addicted to pixy sticks. cavities just waiting to happen.

i watched sparticus last night only to realize that it was a 'to be continued' tv movie which sucked because i was totally getting into it.

i have another coldstone craving. cake batter and brownies... also a cavity waiting to happen. eh who cares. bring on the numbness!

i love love love the beach. i wish i lived within walking distance. when i turn 18 -> shack at the beach.

go outside

-hayley-